Songs for Our Amelia (Songs to Heal the Heart of a Mommy of an Angel Baby.)

First, I'd like to say Thank You.

It's been two weeks since the worst day of our lives. Two weeks of crying, anger, confusion and sadness. I've been home the last two weeks trying to process everything. I'm so thankful to work for a company that's so understanding and has had someone check on me almost everyday since the miscarriage. I'm also so thankful for ones that I haven't heard from in years. You guys reconnecting with me to check on me has done wonders for my heart. I love all of you. I can't forget to thank Marcie and Shelby who have been there to listen to me cry and get my feelings out. Thank you Shelby for the kind and thoughtful gifts you sent us. Mom and dad, thank you for understanding the times that I can't get out of bed and you help me with the girls. Tammy & Tom, thank you for embracing and surrounding me with love every time I see you. You four have such a beautiful angel for a granddaughter watching over you, what a blessing. Abigail, Alena, Bentley & Charlotte, I wish you knew how much your hugs and kisses have healed mommy & daddy over the last few weeks. You four are the light in this time of darkness. You lost your baby sister and I'm so sorry. All four of you loved to cuddle and kiss my belly and that's something I'll treasure forever in my heart. Garrett Thomas, I can't find the right words to thank you. You've been my rock the last couple of weeks. You calm me when I'm angry, you hold me when I'm sad and crying, and most of all, you listen and let me know I don't have to brave this storm alone. You're always here for me. Even though it was a short 10 weeks, carrying our daughter brought me so much joy. God knew I couldn't do this without you. This tragedy has made our relationship stronger and I love you so much.

Music has always helped me heal

If you've been reading my blog posts for the last few months, you know I always post a song to go with the blog. Music has always helped me express my feelings and has helped me heal through some of the hardest times of my life. When I've been alone and feeling down thinking of my Amelia, I turn to music. I've made a playlist to listen to when I need to remember that I will see her one day. These songs are beautiful and have helped me not be so angry. I'll link the playlist at the bottom where it's available to add to your Apple Music library. Here are a few quotes from a couple of the songs.

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I Will Carry You (Audrey's Song)-Selah

So I will carry you

While your heart beats here

Long beyond the empty cradle

Through the coming years

I will carry you

All my life

And I will praise the One Who's chosen me

To carry you.

Heaven Someday (Song for Our Baby)-Shelly E. Johnson

What a sweet day that will be

To meet you on the golden streets

I’ll run to you with open arms

And tell you just how loved you are

Then you can take us by the hand

And lead us through the Promised Land

There we’ll bow before the Throne

And praise the God from whom all blessings flow

Gone Too Soon-Daughtry

Today could have been the day That you'd blow out your candles Make a wish as you closed your eyes Today could have been the day Everybody was laughing Instead I just sit here and cry

Who would you be? What would you look like When you looked at me for the very first time? Today could have been the next day of the rest of your life

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you I'm always asking why this crazy world had to lose Such a ray of light, we never knew Gone too soon

Who You'd Be Today-Kenny Chesney

It ain't fair you died too young

Like a story that had just begun

But death tore the pages all away

God knows how I miss you

All the hell that I've been through

Just knowing no one could take your place

Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today